Showing posts from February 10, 2013

Tempe goreng belacan cili umphh!

Today, for lunch, there is tempe in the fridge. So instead of boring fried tempe, I made tempe goreng belacan cili. So umphhh!! So pedas!! I like it!! I like food that spicy. For me, cili padi is a must..  Even when I eat instant maggi, I put cili padi inside it to make it taste a little bit spicy...

Or when my father cooked fried anchovy with dry pepper. I ate the dry peppers like chips. hehe...

Cherish the moment

I read a blog. The owner shows her love to her boyfriend by giving gifts and so does his boyfriend. Then, the owner shows her new phone wallpaper, that is her boyfriend pictures. They are just a high school couple that just finished their S.P.M last year. It's a gedik situation, some may say, and I was the one who never like this childish things. it makes me puke..

But, what interest me is not the gift, or the activities, but her way of describing the moment, the time, spent together with her love. She describe it so joyfully. It so honest, coming from heart. and the gifts... even it just 20 cents item, it came from honest heart, a pure love heart. A pure heart that know love and the joy of it. I, never show that.. or cherish that..

" You never do something for me, that come from heart, it always.. like you had to do it.. you must do it.. or you can gain benefit from it..  there always whining at the end of it.. "
D'Man always said that, and I keep myself quiet, or s…

Running away from love

Currently status, I'm running away from writing. Too many things inside my head, mostly things that are hurtful and personal that concern family matters. I can't focus, i can't concentrated. Been running away from home  - yeah,  being childish Am i?

D'Man jokingly said- for him,  i'm always a seventeen teen, so it's OK to run away. It makes me laugh cause how so different our ages is, and he's the one who seem to be the matured one. That laugh, thanks to him, some of my problems seems to go away, a bit by bit.

Yeah, i'm running.. He let me be.. but when i turned around, he always there a step behind me, looking over me, watching over me.. until i'm ready to stop, and he will be the one who's going to walk me home back, safely.

Honestly, i never believe in love. I'm a love fiction writer, but i don't believe in it.  Even D'man who  have been my boyfriend for a year, i never really have a 100% love for him. He noticed it. He always sai…

Being A man

Being a man is hard don't you think so? You can't show weakness. You must be dependable. You must be strong enough to protect others. Your mind must be collectibles, your decision must be the right one. You can't show anger, you take the blame.  It's hard, i never thought that, how hard it is to be a man.  Even you feeling so helpless, you had to face it by yourself, mostly alone.

Hard isn't it?

The most part is to keep your love, protect and save it.

I think i found my man. I never thought i will..